who is rem ?

hello, im rem or lain - webmaster, and front end developer of "blueberrymuffinss.neocities.org." i prefer they/them over any other pronoun, but she/her or he/him is also fine. its nice to meet you. im not the best at introductions and such, but i'll try my best. i like art. and some other things like writing and reading, manga, jfashion, puzzles / games like chess, typology, music, and web design. i also enjoy philosophy and psychology !! my favourite game at the moment is forsaken, and twotime is my favourite character from the game !

personality wise, i would describe myself as more reserved than not, curious, and rather eccentric in another's point of view. some of my closer friends might say otherwise, they usually view me as more bubbly, and passionate about my hyperfixations. uhh i guess i would note that i am anxious a lot of the time. im not very good at expressing concern, or appreciation, but it doesn't mean i don't feel these emotions. i have a tendency to think literally, and dissociate. i have trouble paying attention sometimes, from zoning out. characters i see myself as (fictionkins) are lain iwakura from serial experiments lain, ray from the promised neverland, and madotsuki from yume nikki. my favourite character of all time is L lawliet, from deathnote, also my favourite show.

when i do not reply for a while, its often really just because i dont know what to say or my social battery is drained, and might take a while to replenish. however, i have a few close friends who allowed me to be myself around them, and i care a lot about then ! i think theyre awesome people :3 i also do not possess a lot of empathy, so i often times miss social cues, struggle with "reading" others, or find it difficult to connect with other people in general. tonetags are much appreciated. so guys if uhh i have hurt you or did something you didn't like, please just tell me. no need to sugarcoat it or make it sound nice. just please avoid talking about me behind my back !! this is to friends and strangers !!

i personally have suspected / self diagnosed bpd, auditory processing disorder, and autism, and before you come at me, i came to these conclusions after months - years of monitering and analyzing. so, i would appreciate it if you would be patient with me ! i am not in the best mental state right now, but i am trying my best ! if we interact, it would be appreciated to approach with an open mind, and respect <3 you may see " iwc " on my names / bios in games, which basically stands for interact with care ^_^

i grew up with the internet at kind of a young age, which gave me opportunities to learn more about the world around me, and helped me discover much about myself. i think the internet is a very fascinating place, that i really like exploring. so uhhit is also where i discovered my love for many things. honestly, i still have kept many of my older interests.

and i suppose thats all i have to say for now. thank you for reading if you came this far ^_^

my typology

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what is this place ?

blueberrymuffinss.neocities.org is my personal webpage, created on july 31th, 2024. i was at one of my worst times in my life, where i wanted to away from everyone, and everything. i felt really overwhelmed by many outside factors, which was a reason why i started this website. i wanted to start a tiny place for myself to be my escape from reality, where i could present myself authentically, and talk about my interests without worrying about pleasing other people and whatever judgements or perceptions they may cast. i was originally inspired by https://0oxo0.neocities.org/ ! as their website was one of the first i have found when exploring neocities.