who are you ?

intp / infj  5w4  melancholic phlegmatic
genderless  +  unlabelled  queer

hihi !! i'm rin, and i'm the webmaster of blueberrymuffinss.neocities.org, as i have stated in the index ! i love studying many fields of science (most prominently psychology), and creative arts. it's pretty hard to describe myself to someone else, because i fear i am full of contradictions. i don't favor labels for this very reason, thus i place very little upon myself. some people view me as robotic and aloof, but others might view me as someone who is quite talkative and ethusiastic about his interests. i tend to be more comfortable with expressing myself online, than in person. perchance the reason i am like this is because i masked my personality a lot in my childhood. i also had a habit of observing and mirroring the behaviors of other people, which i do even to this day.

an important part about myself is that i like art. i guess visual arts in particular, and it has been this way for as long as i can remember. i guess i always liked it because it felt open ended to me and it was a way for me to express my ideas easily. i often don't think in words, and i believe it is since i have a condition called synethesia. some other things i like are writing, reading, j-fashion and other 2000s fashion subcultures, typology, and web design. i also enjoy philosophy and psychology. my hyperfixation at the moment is currently blue lock ! please talk to me about blue lock .. my faves from blue lock are isagi and bachira wowow, there's gonna be a lot of graphics of my favourite shows and books here yippee

i personally have suspected bpd, asd, executive dysfunction, and auditory processing disorder. none are medically diagnosed, just my own speculation. and before you come at me, i came to these conclusions after months to years of monitering and analyzing. so, i would appreciate it if you would be patient with me ! i am not in the best mental state right now, but i am trying my best ! if we interact, it would be appreciated to approach with an open mind, and respect. you may see " iwc " on my names / bios in games, which basically stands for interact with care

thank you for reading .. ! have a nice day or night !!

why create a website ?

blueberrymuffinss.neocities.org is my personal blog created on july 31th, 2024 ! i was unfortunately at one of my worst times in my life, where i wanted to away from everyone, and everything. i wanted to start a place for myself to escape reality, and to discover and be my authentic self. i was originally inspired by ito ! as his website was one of the first i have found when exploring neocities ^_^

this is so me coded